Just a quick note to say that I am absolutely amazed at the results of this surgery and I am nowhere near all the way recovered.
Court joked (I hope he was joking) that he missed my CPAP machine and that he has been turning it on at night just to hear it’s familiar Darth Vader sound. I have been living on the chaise lounge ever since I got home. I have 5 alarms on my phone so that I can take drugs before the pain takes me and I don’t want to wake Court with that stuff. Especially since a lot of times I am in pain when the alarm rings which means I don’t actually move to take the drugs, I just wallow.
It’s strange how my body just stops functioning when I have pain, especially when the pain epicenter is my head. I also think it’s strange to get tired and go to sleep…WITHOUT drugs.
I was on Prozac before my surgery. If I didn’t take it, it became quite obvious within a few days. I would be really moody and emotional and pretty much an unreasonable terror at times, so I never stopped taking it on purpose. Sometimes i would just forget, like on weekends or vacations…until I looked down at my hands and found someone’s limb that I had torn from their body…
I have not had Prozac since the day before my surgery. I also have not had a Provigil which is the drug I had to take to even motivate me out of bed or off the couch. I feel like a million bucks. A million broken bucks, but a million just the same.
This is awesome.
One gripe: No one told me I was going to have scars on my face after this surgery. I didn’t know until I woke up that there were incisions made on each side of my face to get the tools in. It’s lucky I have such a spotty dotty face, but I’m not too thrilled about extra spots. I guess it wouldn’t have mattered if they’d told me pre-surgery. It’s not something that would have made me change my mind whether or not to have it. However, that being said, I would have liked to have known.
Maybe I won’t scar up so badly now that my sleep is actually restorative.
Come on LIFE! This is exciting.
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